I celebrated my 48th birthday a couple of weeks ago. It was a relatively painless number to turn…while the big Five O is looming around the corner…I still have two more years in my 40’s…which what was it everyone told me when I turned 40? I think it was that “40 is the new 30.” Obviously a saying made popular by someone in their 40’s who still felt like they were 30. I know for a fact that I don’t feel like I did when I was in my 30’s…so I am pretty sure that the 40’s are still just the regular old time 40’s and I am almost certain the 50’s will follow the same path.
But none the less- my 47th year was another year of learning many valuable lessons, making many (hopefully) forgivable mistakes and often experiencing a combination of the two- learning valuable lessons from my forgivable mistakes!!
During my 47th year, I think I have finally “come into my own”, whatever that means… I have actually learned to really like myself a little more, and stop focusing on my faults and my shortcomings so much. While I still have what I have come to call “bad hair days”, the days when no matter what I can’t seem to find much about me that I like or anything anyone else would like- most days I have come to terms with ME! I have more confidence. And I am much happier!
I have quit worrying about what everyone might think or believe about me, or my family. I have come to grip with the fact that there are always going to be haters around me, and there will always be those who want to sit in judgment over me. I have taken a step back from trying to please EVERYONE…as my son David would say, I am a recovering people pleaser.
I know my heart, and believe me, it is pretty wretched…but I also know my God… and He is pretty awesome…and for some unexplainable reason He chose to purchase my wretched self with His Son! So I am choosing to walk in the knowledge that the only one who can sit in judgment over me, has already set me free! I have learned that it is through all of those ugly weak spots, cracks and holes that I have…those are where my Maker’s light shines through!!! He fills my gaps with His saving grace and strength.
After several hard years (I think about 43 to 46) during my 47th year I have been overly blessed with simple happiness. As a recovering people pleaser, my rat race life has calmed down. I enjoy my family and my friends. I am a happier wife and mother, grandmother and friend. I laugh more, and I laugh loud.
Right after my 47th birthday, we made a change in our business. We were forced to let a long time employee go, and I took on added responsibility and a more face to face work with our customers! I have really enjoyed my new position. While working with your husband is always a challenge, I feel like Cody and I are doing a remarkable job at working closely
This year I read through the entire Bible in 8 months!! (Or at least I will have read through it in 8 months- I have 6 more days left in this reading program)And I am currently in a Wednesday night Bible Study where we are reading through it in 90 days! So in 3 months I will have read through the entire Bible twice in a year. It has been life changing for me.
Yep- the 47th year of my life has been wonderful. I have an amazing husband who I love more every day. I have 3 incredible children who have brought two wonderful bonus children into my life and given me the most amazing granddaughter and grandson ever! They are all my happy thoughts and hold my very heart. My friends, my family and my church body keep me grounded in my faith… I am looking forward to what my 48th year brings… life lessons and all. I LOVE YOU ALL!!